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have picked up julia cameron's 'the artist's way' again and turned straight to week 5: recovering a sense of possibility, which is perfect for where i am today, for the first time really feeling the low after being high and on the road for three and a half months. my low looks and feels a bit whiney, like, i'll never be like...or have ...or go...or do....

the exercises at the end of the chapter are killer. they are an exploration and expansion of my relationship to the "source" i.e. god-energy that makes everything happen...some examples:

start an image file: if i had either faith or money i would try...list five desires. for the next week, be alert for images of these desires. when you spot them, clip them, buy them, photograph them, draw them, collect them somehow. with these images, begin a file of dreams that speak to you. add to it continually...

and

if i were twenty and had money...list five adventures. again, add images of these to your visual image file.

and

ten ways i am mean to myself are...just as making the postitive explicit helps allow it into our lives, making the negative explicit helps us to exorcise it.

and

honestly, my favorite creative block is...tv, over-reading, friends, work, rescuing others, overexercise. you name it. whether you can draw or not, please cartoon yourself indulging in it.

and

my payoff for staying blocked is...

and

the person i blame for being blocked it....

and

list ten things you love and would love to do but are not allowed to do. your list might look like this:
1. get regular weekly massages
2. travel to india
3. scuba dive
4. move to a bigger place

etc.

then the wish list: speed write 10 wishes....

am procrastinating doing the exercises right now, cuz i like being depressed and whiney sometimes...more later...cbell